When I mention selflessness, altruism, heroism, bravery, having hope, finding joy, loving, sacrifice, charity, forgiveness, what does your heart tell you about these things? Then why don't you live these everyday? This is where you will find your happiness; this is where you will find the answer to your question.
He is the voice behind your heart. Even though, you are afraid that if you forgive, you will be hurt. You are afraid that if you love, you will be hurt. You are afraid that heroism is too much of a risk; charity is too much of a task. Hope is dangerous. The search for love and joy could be disappointing.
Your fear is preventing you from doing God's Will, and that is what is preventing you from awakening